The body, mind and the spirit keep demanding for something extraordinary.... something different and new. I could not sleep. Yes i can't sleep at all at midnight. I keep receiving many information from.....i don't know.
The brain sending info to the body, the body sending to the mind, the mind sending to the unknown space, the spirit keep traveling far to unknown space and it keeps going round and round like the circle of life.
It sims very spiritual....very unusual too. May be it's the spirit of dance in me is sending me information about.....What!!
The dreams at night sims deferent and totally out of this world. It keeps taking me beyond my usual understanding. While trying to keep my head straight and focus on the projects at hand it keeps reoccurring.
Does that mean i should stop DANCING? Is the spirit demanding for a new me in dance or a new dance in me? Feeling very deferent and bizarre. I keep asking what do you really want but no answer. Just....silence. I mean absolute silence.
So quiet in me. Is the dance also quite too? NO!!....But who knows. May be i need a change of....hmm the mind is very complicating at this moment.....Okay stop dancing, keep dancing but not like this or like that, but the body hurts seriously this days "too many injuries" ; Hey man since you are not on salary and you are a man of too many responsibilities you have to pay your bills, no one will help you if you don't help your self, just focus on choreography, teaching, dance directing, consultancy, international dance project collaborations, your tour, your dance festival and don't stop producing your works as "usual", where are the sponsors?....or do something entirely deferent. Something like what?.... i don't know!!
Fulfillment comes in between the thoughts always which also keeps the heart on a tin line between joy and sad. Does anyone understand what that means?
For the past one month this happens to me everyday most especially at night when am in bed and i can't sleep.
Wo! omo i can't kill my self jor!! May be i need counseling. I need to share this feelings am having. But....CAN I STOP DANCING NOW?
Click here to know about Writer ADEDAYO M. LIADI
The dreams at night sims deferent and totally out of this world. It keeps taking me beyond my usual understanding. While trying to keep my head straight and focus on the projects at hand it keeps reoccurring.
Does that mean i should stop DANCING? Is the spirit demanding for a new me in dance or a new dance in me? Feeling very deferent and bizarre. I keep asking what do you really want but no answer. Just....silence. I mean absolute silence.
So quiet in me. Is the dance also quite too? NO!!....But who knows. May be i need a change of....hmm the mind is very complicating at this moment.....Okay stop dancing, keep dancing but not like this or like that, but the body hurts seriously this days "too many injuries" ; Hey man since you are not on salary and you are a man of too many responsibilities you have to pay your bills, no one will help you if you don't help your self, just focus on choreography, teaching, dance directing, consultancy, international dance project collaborations, your tour, your dance festival and don't stop producing your works as "usual", where are the sponsors?....or do something entirely deferent. Something like what?.... i don't know!!
Fulfillment comes in between the thoughts always which also keeps the heart on a tin line between joy and sad. Does anyone understand what that means?
For the past one month this happens to me everyday most especially at night when am in bed and i can't sleep.
Wo! omo i can't kill my self jor!! May be i need counseling. I need to share this feelings am having. But....CAN I STOP DANCING NOW?
Click here to know about Writer ADEDAYO M. LIADI
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